Oh, what a horrible person I am when it comes to keeping a "goal".
So much for writing every day.
I have my excuses. I have had zero alone time for the last two months! I can't write when I'm not allowed to concentrate for an extended period of time, let alone not allowed any privacy.
I'll delve deeper into that soon. That's an entry all it's own.
When the opportunity arises (which will be soon), I will be writing almost every day. When I get on a roll, there's no stopping me.
At the moment, I am trapped with a person who is very not supportive. Every time I say, out loud, a goal, I am met with a negative comment of some sort....
- "I want to get a desk, so I can have a place designated for writing. It'll be encouraging to write a bit more."
- "You ain't gonna write nothing. You're not going to be a famous writer."
Notice the different ways in which each statement is spoken
That, in itself, speaks volumes of what I am up against.
It is hard enough for me to encourage and uplift myself. It's even harder living with a negative, closed minded dream hater.
That, in retrospect, I have discovered is why I am where I am in life. That place being where I don't want to be...physically, as well as mentally and emotionally.
My life has always consisted of me constantly trying to shovel the shit that is bestowed upon me, while more shit is coming down.
It's very comparable to trying to shovel while it's still snowing.
That is something I want to...no. That is something that I AM going to change! That IS one goal that I AM determined to accomplish. I'm hoping rather soon.
I am determined to reclaim my life as my own, and to be finished making poor, life ruining decisions!
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