Don't Make Me Feel "Crazy"

I decided to write about something that I have experienced before, and am currently dealing with (unfortunately). 
It's not exactly Gaslighting, but I believe that it is a form of Gaslighting. It's a form of manipulation....a tactic that narcissistic individuals use (that's for yet another entry at some point).

I have always been embarrassed and ashamed, and somewhat scared and nervous, to talk about myself (my problems), what I am going through, and what I have went through.

But, if I have learned anything (and this was just recently) in my years of Life Mistakes, it's that you NEED to talk to someone about what speed bumps and difficulties you're experiencing at whatever point in life. This is for a few reasons. One of them being to keep yourself grounded and in your right mind. It's always good to get an outside, more subjective perspective on a subject or situation. It's good to get an impartial opinion on something. If the mind/brain are over stressed, overwhelmed, etc, it is easy to have a distorted perception about things you are experiencing. You need to know if you are thinking reasonably and rationally, or if you are blowing it out of proportion. When the mind is clouded by poisonous words and hate (that someone else is dispensing on you).
It's good to be held down in reality by someone you can rely on, and not to have your mind sit and stagnate in the fecal matter that is negative thoughts which are put upon you by certain other people in your life (which end up being a way of thinking you can automatically adopt).
In regard to my situation, I select very few trustworthy people to run things by. It may take me a while to work up the courage to mention and discuss things, but it does eventually happen (usually). I need to know if I am feeling and reacting normally, or if I'm exaggerating things out of proportion.
If someone is treating you poorly, you just want to be assured that your feelings are warranted and valid. Especially if you have a "problem" such as depression or anxiety. These things often bring about "all or nothing" thinking, or black and white thinking (everything is always an extreme in one direction or another).

You need to confirm your sanity. Usually the people who are mentally and emotionally mistreating someone are in some form of denial, or are delusional themselves. They will say whatever they have to in order to make what they're doing make sense to them...to make it sound like they are right in whatever it is they are doing.
Those manipulative, monstrous, maddening "people" will deny having said something or deny having done something. They'll say something along the lines of "you're making that up", "that didn't really happen", "you took it the wrong way", "you're over reacting", etc. The different ways of spinning it are endless.
They do it to get the blame off of them...to make you question your thinking and sanity (taking the focus off of what it was they did wrong).

That is cruelty. That is mental and psychological abuse.

That is where the benefit of talking with others comes in handy...the keep you sane, and to keep you from driving yourself crazy questioning yourself.